About Camille Willemain, Founder
It all began in 2012 when I took a one way flight to Costa Rica.
My long term relationship ended, I lost my job, and at 25 years old wondering who I really was beyond the stories of my culture and family, I moved to the primary rainforest jungle.
I spent 7 years backpacking in dozens of countries alone, slept in huts in the forest of Finnish Lapland, camped on far remote islands in Cambodia, and gave up everything to follow my soul calling.
I studied countless esoteric systems, from yoga to tantra to shamanism to energy healing to dance meditation, while learning directly from the voices of the water, the springs, the oceans, the trees, the rocks, the ancient land memories.
Eventually, I shared my stories on a blog called This American Girl that was read by millions of people all over the world, and built a business guiding women’s rewilding retreats in Costa Rica. I was living my absolute dream.
Then came my own exile from Eden.
In 2018 I experienced nothing short of a catastrophic rebirth through the reawakening of my womb and simultaneous plunge into the underworld.
First came a flood of trauma I never knew was there, followed by a cocktail of bizarre health symptoms, daily panic attacks, and finally a near death experience that shattered me wide open to the truth of the Dark Goddess.
In the excruciatingly painful process of shedding every layer of my former identity, I opened Pandora’s box of the collective feminine unconscious.
I couldn’t believe what I found there.
Countless lifetimes and entire lineages of profound trauma, dissociation, repressed grief and rage. Violation. Demonization. Abuse. Enslavement. Fragmentation. Unbelievable oppression. And an ocean of disconnection to numb what would otherwise be unbearable pain.
But I also found so. much. more.
I touched the core of beauty, love, and primordial power that rooted me back into the embodiment of deep feminine source.
I remembered Goddess in my own body and I could never forget the feeling of coming home to the mind blowing divinity of my true nature as Love.
Integrating that truth into my life and into the world, while navigating acute PTSD from my near death experience, and extreme dissociation through blasting into enlightened frequencies, was exceptionally humbling and hard.
The outside world not only invalidated my experience, but at times caused me to question and doubt my process, and even wonder if I was crazy.
Beyond that, in the midst of the pandemic I suddenly felt uprooted from the wild nature that had been my home for so many years, and was forced to face the ancient wounding of colonization through my ancestry.
Rediscovering the long forgotten rites of passage of womanhood, through the buried clues hidden in our ancient Goddess mythologies, while learning to listen to the Oracle of my own body, was literally my saving grace in what was very wild confusing intense terrain.
On that path, I was required to face every fear of Goddess inside of myself through a fierce devotion to remember who I was before patriarchy.
After years of relentless initiations, the work of course continues, but today I feel immeasurably blessed to feel integrated, whole, resourced, and deeply connected to my own feminine source, knowing I’m doing my soul work in this world.
I’m far from perfect, but I have found my way back to the ancient path of the Goddess I was required to leave behind so many lifetimes ago.
Nothing brings me greater fulfillment than sharing this work with soulful, wise, powerful women, because I know that as each of us reclaim the source of Goddess inside of ourselves, our world heals, awakens, and evolves in response.
Because you’re here, I can only imagine that you too have been called to reawaken the Goddess in yourself, on behalf of your lineage and our world.
Let me offer you the ancient temple of womanhood, to remember who you were before patriarchy, ecstatically embody all aspects of yourself, and bring your one-of-a-kind path of feminine power back into the world for the well being of All.