In 2018 i experienced nothing short of a catastrophic rebirth through the reawakening of my womb and simultaneous plunge into the underworld.
First came a flood of trauma I never knew was there, followed by a cocktail of bizarre health symptoms, daily panic attacks, and finally a near death experience that shattered me wide open to the Truth of Goddess and summoned two dragons inside of my womb.
In the excruciatingly painful process of shedding every layer of my identity through the reawakening of the Dark Feminine in my sexuality, I opened Pandora’s box of the collective feminine unconscious.
I couldn’t believe what I found there.
Countless lifetimes and entire lineages of profound trauma, dissociation, repressed grief and rage. Violation. Demonization. Abuse. Enslavement. Fragmentation. Unbelievable oppression. And an ocean of disconnection to numb what would otherwise be overwhelming pain.
But I also found so. much. more.
I touched the core of beauty, love, and primordial power that rooted me back into the embodiment of deep feminine source.
I remembered Goddess within my own body and I could never forget the feeling of coming home to the mind blowing divinity of my true nature as Love.
Integrating that truth into my life and into the world, while navigating acute PTSD from my near death experience, was exceptionally humbling and hard.
The outside world not only invalidated my experience, but at times caused me to question and doubt my process, and even wonder if I was crazy.
Rediscovering the long forgotten rites of passage of womanhood, through the buried clues hidden in our ancient Goddess mythologies, while learning to listen to the Oracle of my blood and the deep feminine voice of my sexuality, was literally my saving grace in what was very wild confusing intense terrain.
I invested years and close to $100,000 in therapy, healers, books, articles, research, and courses, retrieving and reweaving the ancient initiatory rites we once knew as women.
When I finally emerged from my four year “dark night of the womb,” and resurrected from the underworld in 2021, I didn’t want other women to have to go through what I did in order to re-member this wisdom. I knew it was time to create a safe sacred life changing journey for women reclaiming the power that lives in their wombs.
I created Queen of the Underworld as a re-emergence and re-vival of the maps we once knew and passed on as women, re-interpreted for our modern age within our current evolutionary blessings and challenges.
I created Queen of the Underworld to offer YOU the process, wisdom, embodiment, resources, and community to reclaim your Dark Feminine Power in a space of safety, beauty, magic, healing, and above all… homecoming.
The truth is… descent is inevitable.
We can’t escape our power in this lifetime. That means… we can’t escape the initiations that come with the underworld, the place that ripens us into our wisdom as both human and divine.
But we get to choose whether we consciously go there, or avoid it at all costs skirting around our power, until something outside of us drags us down.
We get to choose whether we bring our birthrights of beauty, reverence, and sacredness to the ancient holy process of awakening our power through rebirth.